Still stuck in America. I just got over my jet lag. Tomorrow i got to wake up at 5.30am in the morning because since during winter the sun sets early, i have to set out early too so that i can reach my next destination asap which Gilroy or whatever you call that place.
I guess i still have not left the emo phase because I find myself waking up and feeling depressed. Usually this kind of holidays are fun but i do not feel particularly excited over this one. Somehow i feel lonely. When i see a couple i get a tingling feeling. A feeling of jelously? i don't know. Somehow i wish that i was in that couple's shoes because then i would have found my soulmate and my partner for life. I wonder if i would ever meet the right girl. i have complexed feelings these days especially when my polytechnic years are coming to an end. I feel as though i have achieved very little. I feel as though i have partially wasted my polytechnic life away although they are some perks in some cases.
Christmas this year was spent on the road in a coach. i basically spent the whole day sleeping. Only once in a while i had the chance to get off the coach for a breather. The families that were travelling with us were pretty friendly. So today wasn't that bad because we ended up chatting when we weren't sleeping. Of course there is this family of chinese indonesians. the couple has 3 beautiful daughters. In fact 2 out of the 3 caught my attention. They were dam hot and cute. haha i guess i had a surge of raging hormones once in a while. But i already foresaw that we properly would only be aquaintences unless i asked them for their email of something. Surprising i do not have the intention of asking them because i know that it would be impossible for us to be together. what was i thinking? when other guys from the other families talked to them i actually felt a little envious because i wished i was the one who held a sustained conversation with them. Oh, i also have low self esteem because i am quite small in build. so yea i only think girls would start noticing me more when i have a better physique. Any morale boosters here? i think not. Nicholas stop daydreaming because you got to focus on your work too because i foresee that you have a lot of unfinished projects.
Oh yea this is the 3rd time i'm not spending christmas with my secondary school friends. Just their photos alone on facebook makes me envious. if i do not turn up for their events, they would forget me very soon i think lol. they may forget to give me an invitation to their chalet or something in the future! i hope they don't.
Merry Christmas!
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Dialogue in the dark
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
When i see blind people around, i used to think that i already knew how it feels and that it is troublesome and painful to be a blind person. After all my teacher used to teach us how it feels, empathy them and help them if necessary.
When i was younger i used to try acting like a blind man say for 5mins? i would close my eyes and walk around. I would also touch the braille and those bumps we see on the mrt lane and traffic lights. Unfortunately after today, i would say that the superficial exercise did not give me the full effect.
I went for a dialogue in the dark session. We played games blind folded while the our partner would navigate us. After that we were ready to explore the darkness in a maze which was full of darkness. No lights. pitch black. i was inside therefor 2 hours. our guide serena was blind. being so she is very adept in navigaitng through the darkness. we were given walking sticks and had to rely heavily on our hearing and touch. i have to touch the walls slowly to ensure that the path is ok for us to walk over.
Since i have not mastered the skill of writing, i cannot blog the full effect of how i felt. we even went to a cafe for the blind where the cafe was in pure darkness. the cashier was also blind. we drank in darkness. One thing that stood out was serena's cheerfulness and determination. even though she is blind, she is still very optimistic about life. we evne had a small talking session with her. after today, i really kow how it feels like to be blind.Its really painful and sad to be walking in darkness for me.
I cried...
When i was younger i used to try acting like a blind man say for 5mins? i would close my eyes and walk around. I would also touch the braille and those bumps we see on the mrt lane and traffic lights. Unfortunately after today, i would say that the superficial exercise did not give me the full effect.
I went for a dialogue in the dark session. We played games blind folded while the our partner would navigate us. After that we were ready to explore the darkness in a maze which was full of darkness. No lights. pitch black. i was inside therefor 2 hours. our guide serena was blind. being so she is very adept in navigaitng through the darkness. we were given walking sticks and had to rely heavily on our hearing and touch. i have to touch the walls slowly to ensure that the path is ok for us to walk over.
Since i have not mastered the skill of writing, i cannot blog the full effect of how i felt. we even went to a cafe for the blind where the cafe was in pure darkness. the cashier was also blind. we drank in darkness. One thing that stood out was serena's cheerfulness and determination. even though she is blind, she is still very optimistic about life. we evne had a small talking session with her. after today, i really kow how it feels like to be blind.Its really painful and sad to be walking in darkness for me.
I cried...
Dreadful
Monday, October 26, 2009
Feeling dreadful. my nafpha exam is approaching. 2 weeks from now. my best friend hy got silver for it. it just occurred to me that i may fail. i really want to train hard now. but somehow it seems dam frsutrating that i cannot get the build which i want.
These few days i don't know what got over me. been feeling a little down. but i didn't want my friends to know about it. so much projects and work suddenly and with the nafpha exams, i am feeling very 悲惨.
These few days i don't know what got over me. been feeling a little down. but i didn't want my friends to know about it. so much projects and work suddenly and with the nafpha exams, i am feeling very 悲惨.
感想
Monday, September 28, 2009
sunny weather today.5 consecutive days in the sun. Jee kiat HAVE NOT sent me the photos :(
I may actually have some form of pyshic/prophetic powers. dream of my friend kai hong last night. the next day i went to gym with daxino, i saw her. coincidence? maybe but this isn't the first time this kind of dejavu thing happens to me. many many times.
Afternoon was rotting away. smsed natasha and agreed to go regigster for out BTT. i was too tired that i back out. sorry natasha, i promise to go with you another day ;) Went to eat japanese crusine again. was not tt nice as i would have wanted it to be but was not as bad as it could go. Food is ok ok only, service excellent; verdict, Good. 很久没用华文，难怪我的母语这么差。zz 我真是个矢败者。太可惜了！。
I may actually have some form of pyshic/prophetic powers. dream of my friend kai hong last night. the next day i went to gym with daxino, i saw her. coincidence? maybe but this isn't the first time this kind of dejavu thing happens to me. many many times.
Afternoon was rotting away. smsed natasha and agreed to go regigster for out BTT. i was too tired that i back out. sorry natasha, i promise to go with you another day ;) Went to eat japanese crusine again. was not tt nice as i would have wanted it to be but was not as bad as it could go. Food is ok ok only, service excellent; verdict, Good. 很久没用华文，难怪我的母语这么差。zz 我真是个矢败者。太可惜了！。
Zhang Yu says:
ok..don joke wif u le..i need go read the research paper
Nick says:
o jyjy
u 研究wad paper
Nick says:
看什么研究纸?
Zhang Yu says:
purification of protein using affinity chromatography
Nick says:
how to say that in chinese
purification of protein using affinity chromatography lol xD
Zhang Yu says:
r u joking wif me?
Nick says:
i dunno
maybe u know?
I‘m CURIOUS
Zhang yu says:
how to say dat in japanese?
Nick says:
wad thing in jap?
Zhang yu says:
i also very CURIOUS, how to say in japanese purification of protein using affinity chromatography. u tell me first?
(2mins later)
Nick says:
ピュロリフィケシオン オフ プロテンをエッフニテクロメタクロフィ します。
done
=D
whats the chinese de? xD
(10mins later)
Zhang yu says:
使用亲和色谱法纯化蛋白质。
ok..this is a complete waste of time
Nick says:
omg
u rock man
i cant believe u actually went and find the chinese one
Zhang Yu says:
-.- ...nights nick
Saturday baloney
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Clear skies for the 3rd consecutive week!
I expected lots and lots of rain during the autumn season. Well Singapore doesn't have 4 seasons. xP but i notice the thread, during december which is winter in the northern hemispheric countries, Singapore rains a lot! or am i just imagining?
Wadever let's get down to business!
This morning i woke up usually early which is a miracle. =D but i had no planned activites for today. so i spent the morning watching Lord of the rings! fellowship and the two towers. i really love that movie. it has been 8 and 7 years since that movie was shown. During the afternoon, i called Jee kiat to go and gym with me. went to the delta gym.
Today sibei crowded. i met this selfish freak ;( at the gym. kept on hogging the bench press station. wanted to go and smack him. he told me he just started and then he took his own sweet time doing his sets. then later another guy asked him and the guy cut my queue. After that i decided not to do bench press. However after that the nice fillipino guy gave up his bench press station to me. really very nice. but as for that chinese guy; eat sai =D
Went to vivo city to eat japanese food and we went off exploring! we went back to explore our childhood at TOYSARUS. a nostalgia trip back to the past. Jee kiat likes gundam seed. so he spent a lot of time viewing the robots. Best deki offers the best free gaming experience. we versus each other at the xbox 360. i won 3 matches :1 ;) there were some little kids playing as well. i OWED THEM ALL. =D wei yi also tio owned by me =P
Some drumming performance at vivo....pictures will be uploaded soon.
And happy belated birthday to my Sister. i got her a bear. Thanks to daxino and fan sheng for shopping with me. and since we are at it! thank you wei yi for baby yoshi! =D and i stumbled upon some old photos of myself XD in america LOL
YOSHI!!!
YUKI!!!(NAMED AFTER SNOW IN JAPANESE)
NICKY !!
I expected lots and lots of rain during the autumn season. Well Singapore doesn't have 4 seasons. xP but i notice the thread, during december which is winter in the northern hemispheric countries, Singapore rains a lot! or am i just imagining?
Wadever let's get down to business!
This morning i woke up usually early which is a miracle. =D but i had no planned activites for today. so i spent the morning watching Lord of the rings! fellowship and the two towers. i really love that movie. it has been 8 and 7 years since that movie was shown. During the afternoon, i called Jee kiat to go and gym with me. went to the delta gym.
Today sibei crowded. i met this selfish freak ;( at the gym. kept on hogging the bench press station. wanted to go and smack him. he told me he just started and then he took his own sweet time doing his sets. then later another guy asked him and the guy cut my queue. After that i decided not to do bench press. However after that the nice fillipino guy gave up his bench press station to me. really very nice. but as for that chinese guy; eat sai =D
Went to vivo city to eat japanese food and we went off exploring! we went back to explore our childhood at TOYSARUS. a nostalgia trip back to the past. Jee kiat likes gundam seed. so he spent a lot of time viewing the robots. Best deki offers the best free gaming experience. we versus each other at the xbox 360. i won 3 matches :1 ;) there were some little kids playing as well. i OWED THEM ALL. =D wei yi also tio owned by me =P
Some drumming performance at vivo....pictures will be uploaded soon.
And happy belated birthday to my Sister. i got her a bear. Thanks to daxino and fan sheng for shopping with me. and since we are at it! thank you wei yi for baby yoshi! =D and i stumbled upon some old photos of myself XD in america LOL
YOSHI!!!
YUKI!!!(NAMED AFTER SNOW IN JAPANESE)
NICKY !!
Makan =D
Friday, September 25, 2009
Clear skies
I would be blogging about yesterday! Yesterday was fun and tiring. I woke up very late and had arranged to meet daxino and fan sheng for a gyming session. I was a little late. Fan sheng was later. After that we did strength trainig exercises. it was very difficult for me because i am small built.we did many exercises like dips, bench press etc. By the third set i was already drained. during the exercise i saw how daxino trained. i am full of admiration for him for being able to carry such heavy weights. i wish that i can do the same as well in the future. when i entered the gym i also felt a little intimidated because the guys training inside the gym were dam muscular. after gyming i felt my muscles ache. Previously i have not fully recovered from my gyming exercise. it affected my performance. i am already weak and to make it worse i have not fully recovered. i used lesser weights this time round. in my heart i actually feel a little paisei because after all they are my juniors. seniors carrying lesser weights. omg. i hope that the next gyming session, i can carry more weights.
But i must thank fan sheng and daxino for the gyming session anyway.
And now for the fun part!
natasha xue ting, jackson, huichen as well as me went to geylang to each frog-leg porridge!!. i have not seen then for quite some time. i am actually quite happy to see them. Met hui chen first. i was late and hui chen kept complaining. -.- but i understand as well. he still had a lot of work to do. we went to eat porridge first followed by dim sum and then we walk a long distance to eat tofu and portuguese tarts.
Natasha always take ugly pictures of me unglamed ones D=
i also admire people like mei xian and my PAE friend joash. their ability to cope with english and chinese so well is really dam cool. i wish i can improve my chinese more.joash rocks even more!! he is taking higher chinese and still scored B3 for english. pro pro...............
pictures below!
Our last stop! Soya bean curd and egg starts yummy!
Natasha and xue ting with HANDSOME NICK MUAHHA
i think this pic was taken by me! better than those blur pics. tsk tsk my friends sure dunno how to take pics
our food for the last stop =D
the girls sure look better in the pics than us boys =/
Jack acting cute la! but then his acting pass! cute =D
our 2nd stop! all the savouries served in catonese style
KISS MY SWELLING LIPS MUACKS!
Handsome NICK and pretty XUETING!
another shot of the posey girls XD
Greedy jack= hungry jack ownself take 1 pot XD. no wonder Ngee ann has a hungry jack stall =D
HANDSOME NICK AGAIN with PRETTY Natasha!
I would be blogging about yesterday! Yesterday was fun and tiring. I woke up very late and had arranged to meet daxino and fan sheng for a gyming session. I was a little late. Fan sheng was later. After that we did strength trainig exercises. it was very difficult for me because i am small built.we did many exercises like dips, bench press etc. By the third set i was already drained. during the exercise i saw how daxino trained. i am full of admiration for him for being able to carry such heavy weights. i wish that i can do the same as well in the future. when i entered the gym i also felt a little intimidated because the guys training inside the gym were dam muscular. after gyming i felt my muscles ache. Previously i have not fully recovered from my gyming exercise. it affected my performance. i am already weak and to make it worse i have not fully recovered. i used lesser weights this time round. in my heart i actually feel a little paisei because after all they are my juniors. seniors carrying lesser weights. omg. i hope that the next gyming session, i can carry more weights.
But i must thank fan sheng and daxino for the gyming session anyway.
And now for the fun part!
natasha xue ting, jackson, huichen as well as me went to geylang to each frog-leg porridge!!. i have not seen then for quite some time. i am actually quite happy to see them. Met hui chen first. i was late and hui chen kept complaining. -.- but i understand as well. he still had a lot of work to do. we went to eat porridge first followed by dim sum and then we walk a long distance to eat tofu and portuguese tarts.
Natasha always take ugly pictures of me unglamed ones D=
i also admire people like mei xian and my PAE friend joash. their ability to cope with english and chinese so well is really dam cool. i wish i can improve my chinese more.joash rocks even more!! he is taking higher chinese and still scored B3 for english. pro pro...............
pictures below!
Our last stop! Soya bean curd and egg starts yummy!
Natasha and xue ting with HANDSOME NICK MUAHHA
i think this pic was taken by me! better than those blur pics. tsk tsk my friends sure dunno how to take pics
our food for the last stop =D
the girls sure look better in the pics than us boys =/
Jack acting cute la! but then his acting pass! cute =D
our 2nd stop! all the savouries served in catonese style
KISS MY SWELLING LIPS MUACKS!
Handsome NICK and pretty XUETING!
another shot of the posey girls XD
Greedy jack= hungry jack ownself take 1 pot XD. no wonder Ngee ann has a hungry jack stall =D
HANDSOME NICK AGAIN with PRETTY Natasha!
Midnight
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Clear skies
past midnight to be more exact. my brain is empty. i cannot think of a suitable title for this blog entry. i named it midnight.i promised to upload the pictures of the washed bottles in the previous entry. i will not be doing so. i am too tired to even go find those pictures. i am also unable to do so because i have reformatted my laptop and those pictures are long gone. i also promised to blog more often but i did not do so. what can i expect from myself. my friends know that my promises are nothing. my promises are all not promises at all. maybe some of them i do keep but majority of them i do not.actually i am quite pissed at myself because i do not even feel guilty for not keeping my promises.
my results suck this semester. the same goes for my previous semester. i was always hoping that i would score well. but i know that i cannot if i do not put in effort. the 1st and 3rd senester was the best XD, i scored 3.7 and 3.6! but the rest it sucked.i PROMISE to work hard for the next semester.
I have been browsing through various exercise guides for muslce building. for a fact i am an ectomorph. it really dam hard for me to even grow mucles. i used to be dam stressed during my o levels. i read that that stress hormones prevents muscle growth. i will be going to gym more frequent now. i really hope to become more stronger than ever before. some stupid guides told me that my training method is wrong, others told me that my training method is right. who am i suppose to believe now? and then i read another site telling me that the protein shakes industry has been lying to me about muscles growth. well seeing that i have not shown significant muslce growth; i am a believer now. unfportunately i have to order the guy's book which teaches ectomorphs how to gain muscle. i dun wan to spent unecessary money and i will never pay via online. i hope i will have more things to blog about. my holidays are quite boring -.-
past midnight to be more exact. my brain is empty. i cannot think of a suitable title for this blog entry. i named it midnight.i promised to upload the pictures of the washed bottles in the previous entry. i will not be doing so. i am too tired to even go find those pictures. i am also unable to do so because i have reformatted my laptop and those pictures are long gone. i also promised to blog more often but i did not do so. what can i expect from myself. my friends know that my promises are nothing. my promises are all not promises at all. maybe some of them i do keep but majority of them i do not.actually i am quite pissed at myself because i do not even feel guilty for not keeping my promises.
my results suck this semester. the same goes for my previous semester. i was always hoping that i would score well. but i know that i cannot if i do not put in effort. the 1st and 3rd senester was the best XD, i scored 3.7 and 3.6! but the rest it sucked.i PROMISE to work hard for the next semester.
I have been browsing through various exercise guides for muslce building. for a fact i am an ectomorph. it really dam hard for me to even grow mucles. i used to be dam stressed during my o levels. i read that that stress hormones prevents muscle growth. i will be going to gym more frequent now. i really hope to become more stronger than ever before. some stupid guides told me that my training method is wrong, others told me that my training method is right. who am i suppose to believe now? and then i read another site telling me that the protein shakes industry has been lying to me about muscles growth. well seeing that i have not shown significant muslce growth; i am a believer now. unfportunately i have to order the guy's book which teaches ectomorphs how to gain muscle. i dun wan to spent unecessary money and i will never pay via online. i hope i will have more things to blog about. my holidays are quite boring -.-
